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Another addition

dsmiley23 — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 19:34:23 +0000

Haven’t been on here in quite some time. This is just an update for anyone who reads ( which may be no one). I am living in my hometown and working. My daughter, Coberly, is now 20 months and I am due for another girl here in a few weeks. Crazy, I know but that is all that is going on with my life as of now. I am still looking for my career but so far I am content with where I am now. Thanks to all that kept up on my blogs, hopefully I will have some intelligent blogs soon

Something is wrong with the economy…….

dsmiley23 — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 02:48:14 +0000

So after being in the tornado and well affected at least. Jobs have been opening up like crazy. However, When I applied for some of the fast food chains a month before the tornado. Then they said I wasn’t qualified, NOW they are asking me for interviews from all over. HMMMM something is wrong with that picture. How can a company that has a high turnover rate turn me down then decide I am worthy of the position after all. I understand it’s because some of their employees either got affected and moved or just quit. However, me knowing that even if I am over qualified. I am not a teenager and just getting a job because the parents say so. I am willing to work and work at a job that I know that is below my standard of work. However, I am desperate because most jobs won’t hire me that I know I am qualified for but I just don’t have the experience outside of college. Pet Peeve. Along with the fact that all the grown up jobs are lacking in my area of Joplin. Sucks, I know.

Other notes: I am pregnant again and doing an open- adoption. I am glad that Coberly will still get to know her little sibling.

Some rambling

dsmiley23 — Mon, 04 Apr 2011 17:54:18 +0000

As I was reading some news and came across one peice of news. Obama is wanting re-elected in 2012. I am not surprised because most presidents I thought would try to go again. I just haven’t noticed that time goes by so fast. I would rather see Ron Paul run and get elected. Since he at least isn’t in it for the publicity and is wanting to change things too. But its politics.

Other notes, I have a pet peeve. Its called why can’t guys be honest. I would rather have a guy tell me up front when he meets me for a date if he isn’t interested. Instead of dropping subtle hints. For instance I will love to tell you about my date with a jerk. Starting at the beginning. So I met this guy online (first mistake, and not doing it again). We talk and things seem smooth and going well. Keep in mind that I have pictures of myself on the website and they are normal ones. They are not the pictures people have professionally done or posed in a way to look better than what you look like without makeup. SO yeah my pics was of normal poses like with friends and such along with pictures waist up. Well he knew what I looked like and he still kept talking to me so I assumed by looks I was up to standard. Well he then asked for a picture text. So I sent him a picture two days before our date of me in my best because I had taken it after I had my job interview. So I assumed it was a good picture. Then he asked me my weight (Red Flag). I was thinking okay I think its best if he doesn’t like me for my weight to tell me know so I told the truth. He said that my weight wasn’t bad. So still going good. Then it was time for my date. I had cleaned up. I put Coberly in her bed and was ready for a movie date. Well he came in and we said our awkward hellos. As we were sitting down I asked what movie he wanted to watch. Keep in mind he did buy me the movie “Tangled”. As we watched Tangled, he asked how long ago was the picture I sent him of myself. I said of course two days before our date. He then stated that I look like I gained weight. I was immediately thinking how long is this movie lasting because I wanted him gone asap. But the night kept getting better and better. Then he said he lived in a halfway house for smoking. He kept getting on his facebook and texting people and even talking to his ex. (Red Flag) Then he called his friend during the movie and was talking about me in front of me as if I was non-existant. REALLY!!! He was telling his friend about making plans on going to get something to eat and along with the fact about how fat i was and how the movie was. I was getting pissed. This guy has nerves and I was wanting this night to be over. Well after 45 mins of the movie he left. He was meeting his friend to go eat. He asked me if I was the type that gets attached and facebook stalk. As I was leading him out the door. I said don’t count on it. Then as I watched his truck roll off (hoping off a cliff); I went in the kitchen made me a bowl of ice cream with chocolate and caramel. I then pulled out my hershey kisses and watched the movie from the beginning and thinking dating sucks. However, everyone must go through the rough patches in order to find the diamond in the rough. At least I got a movie out of it!!!

A new beginning means a new adventure

dsmiley23 — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 21:29:36 +0000

After so much time away for re-evaluating myself and my life. Things were rough and things fell into place. My daughter Coberly is going to be 1 on the 17th of March. I am excited that I raised a little thing like her so far so good. I am back in Joplin because I wanted to go for some more school. I have my own place and hoping this interview I have this week is going to my advantage. I will be visiting my dear friends in OKC this weekend. So excited! Since I was in labor at AMC but Cobra was born at St. Anthonys.

Things are getting better.

Stressed out!!!

dsmiley23 — Thu, 03 Dec 2009 04:00:18 +0000

It is so stressful today. I am still looking for a job and the most important thing is that I have NOTHING for the baby. Not even a crib. I have 3 months, estimate til Coberly gets here and I have nothing for her. I went to my roommates work and cried and venteded to him. He hugged me and said everything will be ok. I hope so. I went to a church to see if they had work and bawled there. They were so nice they gave me money. At first I wasn’t wanting to accept it since all I wanted was someone to be my support. Then I thought about the toilet paper that I need so I accepted after thinking about that. I hope God blesses that church. I have been keeping a diary of my highs and lows of the pregnancy for coberly to read. My weight is so outrageous, I wish I could try to lose weight without the doctor knowing at the next visit. I look like an obese cow. UGH :{

A new addition to my life….soon

dsmiley23 — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 21:43:36 +0000

I haven’t been up on this thing for a while. So let’s update. I moved to Oklahoma City because I didn’t want to move to NYC alone. I have 2 lovely roommates…guys of course. Its better than girls, since they bring to much drama inside a home that is really needed.

I am looking for another job since I don’t get much hours at my other job. I am 5 months pregnant so far and still growing. I like it so far this month. In the first trimester it sucked. I was throwing up and losing too much weight. Then the second was sooo much better. I couldn’t even tell that I was pregnant since I couldn’t feel the baby or have the nausea. The only way I could tell I was still pregnant was the non-visitation from Aunt Flo. Now I am entering my third trimester and its still great but not as great in the second. I have been crying alot for no reason, I just do. I usually cry over stupid things. It’s like I am the child, here. If things don’t go my way or something of the sort I get teary eyed. Along with emotions being on a rollercoaster; I have to pee all the time. It seems like every 30 mins I have to go. Sucks, especially when I don’t even drink anything.

I had to go to the hospital though last week. I had seen blood in my urine. So I went and got checked out. Everything was fine. They couldn’t find where the blood was coming from. Next month they are doing some tests on my heart since lately its getting hard to breathe and chest pains. They think its because of my heart murmur. So we will see. Also I found out great news. I am having a Baby Girl!!! Her name will be Coberly Ann Smiley. I can’t wait. I want to get the cutest outfits and start decorating. Well that is all for now. I promise to keep updating for everyone!

Life gets stressful when more unexpected things come along.

dsmiley23 — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 03:54:06 +0000

For starters, I went to the doctor and seen the baby bounce around. I couldn’t feel anything because its still early. I am 13 weeks now. Chris still doesn’t seem to care about this situation. I don’t care anymore, It was just stressing me out to just keep him happy or his own way. Other notes, I am hoping that everything goes smoothly with the move to NYC in a couple of weeks. I hope I have enough money. I am working on it. Another note, most importantly I hope I can do this all on my own. Single Mom starting a career. Wish me luck.

So much to do, in so little time.

dsmiley23 — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 13:57:59 +0000

I am moving on Sept 28 to New York City. I can’t wait to move. However, that isn’t the only big thing that is going on in my life. I am pregnant!!! I am 7 weeks so far. The only thing that sucks at the moment is morning sickness that is lasting all day. I have not kept anything down. I can’t take my prenatal since it makes me vomit. I hate this feeling. I am hungry and yet it comes back out after it went down. If anyone knows of any special techniques to handle this, don’t hesitate to comment.

Ever wonder…..

dsmiley23 — Sat, 20 Jun 2009 16:48:36 +0000

I was thinking the other day. How come no one remembers the day they were born or even in the womb? I was thinking about when was my earliest memory. The earliest memory I have is a blurry one but from when I was in the crib and its my only memory of me in a crib with my dad doing something in the room next to me. I was in the far bedroom where my sisters shared when they got older. After that memory is from preschool. I can’t remember anything before I started preschool and the crib memory. Its weird. How come we can remember more with our teen years and on than before we could walk? I wonder if there is anything to prevent this?

So moving on…just had to get that off my mind.

I am moving to NYC in Sept. I am working my booty off. I can’t wait to start an adventure. If anyone noticed from my previous posts that I am single now. I just recently turned him in and he is waiting trial. I always seem to go for the bad and using types. When will I ever find my prince charming? Well, right now, I am going to live life and not worry about relationships. I am kind of scared about New York. I hear everything that is bad about it that I wonder if I will ever find something good. I am also worried about getting a job and subways and trains… I feel like I should be in the movie “The Wiz” to help me out. I am also worried if I will save up the money I need to move. I think I may just take vacation at one job then work overtime on another job while I am on vacation with the one job. Then the other way around after one vacation is over. I will make it though.

On another note, I plan on surprising my sister tomorrow. She thinks that I am not going to her baby shower. I am taking my Best Friend Brett with me. Brett is also moving with me to NYC. He is like a big brother. Also, he is blunt and will tell me how it is in a constructive criticism way. I used to have a crush on him til I found out that he was gay. Poop, but hey at least living with him is a step up.

Of course, I am at work so I better get off here and do something productive.

Engagement was based on lies

dsmiley23 — Wed, 20 May 2009 12:01:47 +0000

I was engaged and last week I ended the relationship. My fiancee cheated on me with a coworker. Later I found out that he was also a scam artist. He was never a Ranger in the army and let alone a Staff Seargent. He was also planning on taking my money when we shared the same account. I didn’t end up sharing anyways, but he would have. I found all this information from his Exes. To top it all off, I was his 4th fiancee in 3 years. After hearing all of this I am completely over him. I am soo glad I got out of that relationship when I did. By the way not to sound conceeded or anything but I am waaayyy prettier than her. The homewrecker is not rich but her family is so she is spoiled and right now he is living with her. I know it was childish, but the night I put his stuff on the porch sicne I didn’t want him in my house. I poured body wash all over his clean clothes and etc. Well now I am on the market. I have learned quite alot since this experience. I need to take my time with men. I can’t get attached too easily and take care of me before I take care of anyone else. I am sooo glad I did it before marriage.